1. 1 year ago 

    My temple’s been invaded, and there’s nobody guarding it.

    I hate when a self help book makes me feel worse about myself than I did before I consulted it. Just let me be in denial.

    Also, I love when I find a song that describes my mood perfectly, no matter how depressing it is.

    Sad ideas have been flooding my brain today, and this in turn causes me to remember sadder things. The smallest objects trigger things from my childhood, and these are the things I blocked from my memory because I’m pretty sure they have contributed to issues with my self esteem and whatnot. When I look at a can of silly string for instance, I have a feeling of not being good enough. Don’t ask why. One instance caused the fun to be sucked from a child’s play thing. That was a dark time. Now, I can relate this to how I feel today because again, I don’t feel like I’m good enough. I will always feel second best, and I’m still looking for that moment where I’m not just another option. So, for now, I will sit back and listen to the music that reflects this mood so perfectly and wait for my moment.

    Trying to create something that’s not there;
    A spark I saw as a bomb is just a means to an end.

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